LeTs GiV Diz A tRY..... specially uploaded utk insan2 yg tension!! hee

Berani?? cube lah....hehe...
try then giv me the results...
it is very effective...

tRoubLe wItH ........

5 days left to finish my clinicals here...
happy but sad too...lots of memories n experienced..
n ....at the same time final exams is just around the corner..
n...completing my bunch of assignment is another matter..
so everything makes me stressful..

gosh i just hav 2 weeks to do my revision for finals.
shud i hope 4 a good marks?? hahhaa
u wishhhh....
but im still hoping for a little miracle...heheh -atleast for pass marks-hihi

everything is still undercontrol..
coz i ve few people who always giv me support n nvr lemme down..
my parents ,my love..
coz of them im still here today..hehe..


uff...i suppose to complete my assignmentsssssss...(plural of "s" coz ive a lottt )
erkk..
*now doing component for angiography*hehe
raining heavily~~~n it makes me soooooooo sleepppyyyyy...
assignment...assignment......cepat la abissss...

~L0Ve Of a FatHeR~~ dedicated utk sume anak2..

From father to beloved son...



Dear son...

the day that u see me old..hav patience and try to understand me..
If I get dirty when eating...If I cannot dress..hav patience..
Remember the hours i spent teaching to u..



If, when i speak to u, I repeat the same things thousand n one times...do not interrupt me..listen to me...
when u were small,I had to read to u the same story a thousand times until u slept..



When I do not want to hav a shower, neither shame me nor scold me...
Remember when I had to chase u with a thousand excuses I invented, in order to bath u..



When u see my ignorance on new technologies .. giv me the neseccary time n dont look at me with ur mocking smile...
I taught u how to do so many things..to eat good,to dress well..to confront life..



When at some moment I loose the memory or thread of our conversation....let me hav necessary time to remember..n if I cannot do it dont become nervous
As the most important thing isnt my conversation but surely to b with u n to hav u listening to me..



If I ever dont want to eat,dont force me..
I know well when I need to and when not..



When my tired legs do not allow me to walk...
giv me ur hand..the same way I did when u gav ur first steps..



And when someday I say to u that i dont wanna live anymore, that i wanna die..
dont get angry..coz some day u ll understand,..
try to understand that my age isnt to live but SURVIVED..



Some day u ll discover that, despite my mistakes,i always wanted the best thing 4 u
n that I tried to prepare the way 4 u..
U must not feel sad, angry or impotent 4 seeing me near u..
U must b next to me,trying to understand me n to help me as I did it when u started living..



Help me to walk ..help me to end my way with love n patience..
I will pay u by the smile n by the immense love I hav always had 4 u..



My beloved son...I began loving u b4 u were even born.
Will u continue to remember me long after im gone??
If i was given a choice..I would surely die 4 u..
but will u live 4 me?

I LOVE U....



p/s: LEts pun in a prayer 4 them :)



love u mum..love u dad

u r so cruel........

how could u....
why u do this to them...to the people that i love most..
to the people that i care most..
i still cant find the reason y...
they trust u...
this is not the first or second chance..i just cant remember how much u hav been forgiven..
when u will stop??
everytime u hurt their feelings..u hurted mine too..
u hav been given everything u want...

but what is actually u want??
u leave when u want to b free..but u came back when u need something...
u captivate everyone..
its such a splendid acting..
this wounds wonts seems to heal..
this pain is just too real.
they held ur hand through all of these years..
but u still....
dont hurt them anymore...
i cant see even a teardrops fall from their cheeks.
the way u humiliate them..
the pain that u gave....it was really unbelievable..till the time cannot erase those pain.
its painfull..really painfull..

i wud give u my life....to wipe their tears..
but pls..dont hurt them anymore..
enough is enough..

if u knew how painful it is......its unexplainable...
Ya Allah..help me to overcome this feelings....
coz im still waiting...
waiting for the time when i can get back their pleasent smile...

ermm..no comment..

isk3...today is the world's most humiliating day everrrr...
ni sume psl cassidy la..ske serbu x pkai helmet !
me n my friend were taking a nap in the pantry during lunch hour,then
suddenly w/tout knocking the door.............here it is....the most annoying person in the whole whole wide world...all of sudden..came there to take his "undone" bunch of work..
such a lazy d****r (xnak mmburukkan profession ni) heee.
but obviously we closed the door n lock the front deprtment...
but still he came inside like nothing happen, like no one there..

i was wondering y he is so rude..ergh...
sabar je la....its ok :)
9 days to go.....................weeeee

Gettin bitter .......

"maybe u need some space for urself....u r definetly okey." thats what he told..
sometimes..i feels like my body does not belong to me..
i dont know if what i felt was really happens..
or i lie n im cheating myself..

its kinda strange n weird..should i hide..or shud i let it go..
even if im trying to run....its part of me...its chasing me...
n still...in me...n always be..
shud i say its a cruel fate...definetly no....but its already a fate...
its just..im confused..n its such a gr8 confusion.i wish i can let it go..
i dont want to live with any regret..never asked y did it choose me..
but i hold to what daddy always said...I hav a strong faith that it will leave u one day"
please...go away from me ...

dush!!! bile aku toleh kanan tersentak jantung ku..
bile nmpak 1 jasad tergolek kat dlm longkang..n motor die jatuh kat tpi..
astaghfirullahalazim....ape ni,,...rupe2 nye,..
ade 1 mamat ni dari kiri dah langgar pintu kete mse ak nak kua..
Ya Allah...mse tu jantung aku bdegup kencang...kaki aku lembik...
seram sejuk je rase.....

"kepala hotak aWak ok!!!! " tengking mak kpade budak ni kat roomate aku yg bertanye smade die ok ke x..
mak die yg tinggal x jauh dari tmpat kjadian mluru kat situ ..
mak die marah2..ak pun trime je la..sbb ak yg salah...ye la mse bukak pntu kete x pndang blakang btol2....
aku sbenarnye tumpang kete mak kwn aku...adik die ade exam arini..so mak die anta adik die dlu..n ktorg still lg kat tmpat kejadian....

budak yg eksiden tu boleh kua dari longkang n siap maki2 n ktawe2 lg..
fine...ak trime je la sbb ak rase ak yg salah..
tp mak die mmg kasar...x abis2 nak ckp report polis..
so ak pn call la ayah aku...dengan air mate yg berderai2...
lg syok la makcik tu tgk org mcm aku..lemah je...lg die ugut2 aku
die kate kpale anak die terhentak...kne wat xray la pe la...
maybe die igt aku bodoh kot
pdahal aku mmg keje kat ospital...
so rumet aku ckp la kat makcik 2 yg ktorg ni keje kat ospital..so bwk la anak makcik ke sane.. kte wat medical checkup
"ahh...\pape pun saye nak report dlu"...tempik makcik tu...
ayah aku da cube naak runding ngan die tp die xnak..
so ayah aku ckp...let she do her own way..
die nak repot kte pun report lah..
then aku ckp lg baik2 ngan makcik tu...yg aku akan bayar sume ganti rugi + rawatan (wlaupun xde spalit luke kat badan anak die )
tp die bkeras gak nak wat report ....so...ok la....report la...

ak da buntu....sbb ni first time jadi kat diri aku..dah la jauh dari family...
then ade sorg pkerje ospital dtg amik ktorg...sbb mak kwn aku ni ade hal penting kne uruskan..
so ktorg pn tggu la pakcik gani ( attendent kat department) dtg amik..
 org yg g tgk kmalangan tu ckp " xde pape lah..skit je"
tp makcik ni x leh trime...so die g wat report ktorg pn tggu la kat ospital..
mujur la awal2 pg tu xde kes..
so x bizi pun...
abes 1 hospital tapah taw psl cite ni...n  ktorg mennggu2 kdatangan makcik "kerek" ni dgn anak nye,..
tggu punyer tggu...akhirnye dtg gak..masuk2 casualty je die da wat bising....
"mane 2 org doktor platih tu" tengking die...cari aku ngan member aku ni la..
hai...menggile lak die kat ctu..
doc yg handle kes tu Dr.Vickram...pstu ble staf2 kat ctu taw yg die la pmpuan yg aku mksudkan..rmai la org g krumun kat ctu..
rupe nye ngan Dr. Vickram pun die menggile gak...kah3...die nak wat gak xray..
tp doc ckp la..nak xray ape nye dah xde pape..
tp die degil..beria2 nak wat gak..then doc xnak wat..ade ke die marah doc tu...
pastu b4 kua ttbe die suh Dr. Viclram tulis MC kat die..hahaha...ape lg....sape nak bg MC..nak la gile

then aku n member aku ni jmpe la die kat lua casualty..die ckp x pndang pun muke ktorg...
die kate die nak wat gak skull x ray.....die kate anak die pening..mcm ade internal bleeding..
hahha..mse 2 nak tgelak pn ade...then explain la kat die "makcik..kalo ade fracture ke, bleeding ke...msti da bengkak.x pun die pengsan....
anak die siap leh sengih2 lg kat aku...
then die g famasi amik ubt..aku msuk casualty jmpe Dr.Vickram...
rupenye diorg kat dlm tu tgh ktawe kan kegilaan makcik tu...
ble aku cite psl die kate ade internal bleeding..lg la sakan diorg ktawe...
mane nmpak bleeding dlm xray..huuuu
tp aku rase lege la jgk sbb ade org on my side..alhamdulillah..xde rase keseorangan..he2

tp la..kalo anak die dtg wat xray.mg bg high KVP n mAS..radiation kaw2 punye,,huhu
pastu kul; 11 mak kwn aku ni g la wat report bg pihak aku..
rupe2 nye...polis2 kat c2 kate mmg diorg da lame aim moto budak die..sbb merempit...
n rpe2 nye jgk..td mak die da wat kecoh kat balai..huhu..

so d pendekkan cite..ak kne la baya compoud rm300...
bende yg boleh selesai sendiri tp makcik 2 x nak..

sume staf2 kat ospital kate die wayar ade short skit..haha..ye la..menggile x tentu pasal..
sesame melayu islam pun nak wat cmtu..
so begitulah ite nye..
pengalaman pertame membayar saman..tp aku mcm ade sikit trauma la
atill xleh lupe..smpai rase nak demam...
tidur pun asik terkejut2 je..
kate bpak kwn aku...dugaan di bulan ramadhan
wallahualam