LeTs GiV Diz A tRY..... specially uploaded utk insan2 yg tension!! hee

Berani?? cube lah....hehe...
try then giv me the results...
it is very effective...

tRoubLe wItH ........

5 days left to finish my clinicals here...
happy but sad too...lots of memories n experienced..
n ....at the same time final exams is just around the corner..
n...completing my bunch of assignment is another matter..
so everything makes me stressful..

gosh i just hav 2 weeks to do my revision for finals.
shud i hope 4 a good marks?? hahhaa
u wishhhh....
but im still hoping for a little miracle...heheh -atleast for pass marks-hihi

everything is still undercontrol..
coz i ve few people who always giv me support n nvr lemme down..
my parents ,my love..
coz of them im still here today..hehe..


uff...i suppose to complete my assignmentsssssss...(plural of "s" coz ive a lottt )
erkk..
*now doing component for angiography*hehe
raining heavily~~~n it makes me soooooooo sleepppyyyyy...
assignment...assignment......cepat la abissss...

~L0Ve Of a FatHeR~~ dedicated utk sume anak2..

From father to beloved son...



Dear son...

the day that u see me old..hav patience and try to understand me..
If I get dirty when eating...If I cannot dress..hav patience..
Remember the hours i spent teaching to u..



If, when i speak to u, I repeat the same things thousand n one times...do not interrupt me..listen to me...
when u were small,I had to read to u the same story a thousand times until u slept..



When I do not want to hav a shower, neither shame me nor scold me...
Remember when I had to chase u with a thousand excuses I invented, in order to bath u..



When u see my ignorance on new technologies .. giv me the neseccary time n dont look at me with ur mocking smile...
I taught u how to do so many things..to eat good,to dress well..to confront life..



When at some moment I loose the memory or thread of our conversation....let me hav necessary time to remember..n if I cannot do it dont become nervous
As the most important thing isnt my conversation but surely to b with u n to hav u listening to me..



If I ever dont want to eat,dont force me..
I know well when I need to and when not..



When my tired legs do not allow me to walk...
giv me ur hand..the same way I did when u gav ur first steps..



And when someday I say to u that i dont wanna live anymore, that i wanna die..
dont get angry..coz some day u ll understand,..
try to understand that my age isnt to live but SURVIVED..



Some day u ll discover that, despite my mistakes,i always wanted the best thing 4 u
n that I tried to prepare the way 4 u..
U must not feel sad, angry or impotent 4 seeing me near u..
U must b next to me,trying to understand me n to help me as I did it when u started living..



Help me to walk ..help me to end my way with love n patience..
I will pay u by the smile n by the immense love I hav always had 4 u..



My beloved son...I began loving u b4 u were even born.
Will u continue to remember me long after im gone??
If i was given a choice..I would surely die 4 u..
but will u live 4 me?

I LOVE U....



p/s: LEts pun in a prayer 4 them :)



love u mum..love u dad

u r so cruel........

how could u....
why u do this to them...to the people that i love most..
to the people that i care most..
i still cant find the reason y...
they trust u...
this is not the first or second chance..i just cant remember how much u hav been forgiven..
when u will stop??
everytime u hurt their feelings..u hurted mine too..
u hav been given everything u want...

but what is actually u want??
u leave when u want to b free..but u came back when u need something...
u captivate everyone..
its such a splendid acting..
this wounds wonts seems to heal..
this pain is just too real.
they held ur hand through all of these years..
but u still....
dont hurt them anymore...
i cant see even a teardrops fall from their cheeks.
the way u humiliate them..
the pain that u gave....it was really unbelievable..till the time cannot erase those pain.
its painfull..really painfull..

i wud give u my life....to wipe their tears..
but pls..dont hurt them anymore..
enough is enough..

if u knew how painful it is......its unexplainable...
Ya Allah..help me to overcome this feelings....
coz im still waiting...
waiting for the time when i can get back their pleasent smile...

ermm..no comment..

isk3...today is the world's most humiliating day everrrr...
ni sume psl cassidy la..ske serbu x pkai helmet !
me n my friend were taking a nap in the pantry during lunch hour,then
suddenly w/tout knocking the door.............here it is....the most annoying person in the whole whole wide world...all of sudden..came there to take his "undone" bunch of work..
such a lazy d****r (xnak mmburukkan profession ni) heee.
but obviously we closed the door n lock the front deprtment...
but still he came inside like nothing happen, like no one there..

i was wondering y he is so rude..ergh...
sabar je la....its ok :)
9 days to go.....................weeeee

Gettin bitter .......

"maybe u need some space for urself....u r definetly okey." thats what he told..
sometimes..i feels like my body does not belong to me..
i dont know if what i felt was really happens..
or i lie n im cheating myself..

its kinda strange n weird..should i hide..or shud i let it go..
even if im trying to run....its part of me...its chasing me...
n still...in me...n always be..
shud i say its a cruel fate...definetly no....but its already a fate...
its just..im confused..n its such a gr8 confusion.i wish i can let it go..
i dont want to live with any regret..never asked y did it choose me..
but i hold to what daddy always said...I hav a strong faith that it will leave u one day"
please...go away from me ...